Archive for December, 2005

The more I say no….

Thursday, December 29th, 2005

Skills needed:

Fluency in multiple language.
Understanding of different cultures.
Engineering background.
Customer care experience.

Personality:
Outgoing.
Keen interest in technology.

Location:
Taiwan (DOH)

Date rape drugs

Wednesday, December 28th, 2005

After reading up on the 3 main drugs used for date raping girls I started wondering what effect does a drug has to have to be categorized as date rape. They all seem like drugs that makes woman unable to recall what happened… but how about slipping Vitara into their drink making them extremely horny and just want to do you right there?

That being said, I wonder if any girl ever slipped any viagra into guy's beer so he'd fuck her and she'd have his child so they can get married and get divorced in order for her to get half his money.

Fast forward

Sunday, December 25th, 2005

Dance relationships are like a fast forwarded version of a normal one. Makes you wonder what happened when it is finished.

Thoughts

Sunday, December 25th, 2005

As I have more and more discussion with different people, I realized that people are uncomfortable with the questions that I ask. Questions like:” Do you think technology is good for the human race?”

I personally always feel intrigued if someone says something similar. Why? Is it because people don't ask questions? Are they afraid? Or we are just built to ask different questions.

Promotion again

Thursday, December 22nd, 2005

So this is what it feels like. To work so hard for something and get it.

It's been 1 month since i danced and I spent all these time working on my career and improving every aspect of my life. They take ages to be done. But everything requires time and as I look back, I realize that the double life I was leading was the main cause of why I was stuck at the same place in life over and over.

It is also at this time, when I started taking the position of power that I realized how important they way you treat people is, even the ones you don't like. With power comes things that others want from you and the first feeling I get whenever someone ask me for that is “What's so important about you that makes me want to give you that?” Rub me the wrong way, I won't get mad at you or outright say now, but it just won't get done. The best thing is, you won't even know about it.

I see so much of my life that need change, but that will be next year. I am just burnt out from the extra effort I've been putting in for the last month.

Current stats is 1200 problems handled by me per month, 42% resolved, 6 minutes phone talk time on average. 92% customer satisfaction out of 15 polls. Ranked 2nd in my team, 5th in the company at the most understaffed team with the hardest issues. Business, R&D applications and web collaboration team. Including database, internet connectivity, R&D application, Business Microsoft apps. Database issues, network issues.

Somethings are not meant to be perfect

Thursday, December 22nd, 2005

When Micchi introduced System of down to me in downtown Austria, it sounded like some type of harsh beat with lyrics that makes me cringe by how weirdly it turns. It's not pure metal and it's not beautiful singing either.

Over the year I tried several times to listen to it and eventually started liking some of the songs they have. But there's always this one song that I can't stand… until I heard their live recording. That's when it all fell together. That song was not meant to be on a record with the perfectly fine tuned and digitized drumbeats.

It was meant to be sang by someone with a sore throat who've been singing the whole night. It was meant to be heard live, to be screamed out from the top of the lung. Not fine tuned in a studio where whispering can be heard from the other room.

It all made sense and my neighboor downstairs is knocking on my door again…

Death/Life

Sunday, December 18th, 2005

Life is most beautiful when you are on the edge of life and death. Every life tries its best to give its final explosing of grandeur for that one last moment of glory, so it can die knowing that it has shown the world it's most grandios moment.

Flowers gives a second blossom when you cut it and burn its stem, brocoli shows it's most vivid green when you dip it in hot boiling water for 1 second. What do we human do?

Jack me in.

Saturday, December 17th, 2005

I found a new and interesting way to learn. It involves sleeping and playing audio books in cycles with my mp3 player.

I find this way of learning more of a subconscious thing. If I reply the audio book, I won't know what's going to come up, but as soon as it's said I will remember knowing it. I find this way of learning best for language as it is a subconscious learning. I don't know, we'll see… I'll try to find some programming audio book and see how that goes.

The side effect of this is that you wake up more tired. It's the closes thing to matrix'x “Jack me in” that I can find in this real world.

Freak

Sunday, December 11th, 2005

They looked at me with disbelief, the open jaw bewilderment you often see on people's face when they just saw a freak jerking off in public, a toungue long enough to touch the nose or a woman undressing in front of you like the most normal thing in life.

I only paused for a moment while applying my makeup to reminiscent the scene from Secretary, where the Dominant walked to his office through a lineup of bystanders looking at him with a combination of disgust and amazement.

“Yes to them, I am a freak” I said to myself as I surveyed the group of christian parents surrounding my dance partner's table.

I tried to watch her parent's reaction to this and they choose ignorance in order to cope with it. Not seeing is like it never happened. Just like the feeling I get when i see two guys locking lips in a french kiss at a public bus terminal.

Homeless guy

Monday, December 5th, 2005

“This metro goes north?”

“It goes west to downtown”

“No, Henri Bourassa goes north.”

“Ok”

“Do you know when's the last metro?”

“About 12:28″

“No, it's 12:58″

“If you know the answer then don't ask me.”

“I am just trying to get the truth out”

“Well, if you want to know the truth, the last metro depart from the end of the metro line at 12:28 and takes 30 minutes to get here and by that time it's 12:58″

emacs

Sunday, December 4th, 2005

After a year of using emacs, I've forgotten everything about it. What I used to be able to do subconsciously now requires discipline to remember the sequence of keystrokes that needs to be pressed.

I feel like a newbie again.

Multilingual movie

Sunday, December 4th, 2005

I can't believe it at first… I thought it's just associated with the usual sloppy translation of chinese movies, but this one has too much money spent on it to be categorized as that. It isn't until the 3rd language got introduced in the movie that I realized the director wanted it this way.

I can only understand one of them perfectly, this movie is a keeper.

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